Maybe I’m becoming old, or older in my views, but what this all is boiling down to is I’m really enjoying the time that I am spending *with* people, rather than the pseudo-relationships I’ve formed via social networking. It’s a simple concept. The concept of spending time with each other rather than the electronic tethers can be quite rewarding. I knew this concept a while ago. I know I lost it for a time. I think way too may of us have forgotten such a simple concept as well with the explosion of social networking sites, multi-use cell phones and other gadgetry. It doesn’t mean that these devices are terrible but I see that they are overused or at least can be overused. Even if simple dumbing down of technological communication types were to occur, I don’t think that I’d complain that much if it meant that people were to interact with each other more meaningful fashion.
Social Retardation
March 21st, 2010Negatives are positive
March 21st, 2010
For sometime now I’ve been ‘competing’ in a contest of two that we call ‘Bitch Fest’. Last year it ended with no winner but two participants that were able to vent, release and complain freely without the usual constraints that social standards hold us back. We let loose on all that ails us mentally, and even sometimes physically, knowing that the other will be there for a friendly ear and perhaps some advice. Even if the only sound heard is a sigh, it’s nice to know that someone is there. This year in ‘Bitch Fest 2010′, I have had quite a few complaints already. My counterpart has had just about the same quantity. We never really keep tally or do a yearly review because really, what’s the point of reliving the past complaints? I don’t know if we’ll ever find a way to determine a true winner in this so-called game. What I do know is that I’m finding that I feel valued as a friend when my counterpart calls me. Be it to vent via BF2010 or just checking in, the fact that they took the time to make contact with me is becoming a very rewarding experience. I’m finding this to be true with a few of my friends really. Be it, past co-workers that I still talk with or pool buddies that want to spend time with me…
In closing, ‘Bitch Fest 2010′ will continue, I must say that having such a ‘game’ has been more helpful and rewarding to me than I could have imagined.
SVRG Weekend Recap
March 7th, 2010
Going home sick Friday I thought I was going to have to give my tickets away for my inaugural show into the world of roller derby. Saturday I was feeling a tad better but not too much. I still had the study session come over even though my head was pounding like a jack hammer. Avoiding booze was necessary but water was needed in large quantities as was aspirin. Once the study session broke down I got a tad bit of rest before we headed to Kimmy’s place. We, the four of us, were to meet there before the match so we could carpool. We ended up meeting fairly on time and went to a pizza place that KW’s friend recommended. He’s not allowed to recommend food places anymore. Leave that to the fatties. As we finished what we could of the pizza, we had a few minutes before the doors would open. Since this was all of our first time at such an event we didn’t know what to expect. Arriving at the rink a few minutes before the opening of the doors was so not necessary. interesting? Definitely! Needed? Hellz no!
The Game itself would be better served if the teams were split on days. Meaning that the Dot.Kamikazes and the KillaBytes played on different days. Of course this is my opinion and *I* have no understanding of why things are the way they are. What imagine from an outsiders perspective is that if these two squads run different days it’d be easier to balance which squad pulls in X amount and which squad pulls in Y amount. This of course may not be an important factor. I hope it isn’t personally because the camaraderie I saw last night was priceless. I do know though that after sitting thorough a fantastic first game I was so tired that I wasn’t able to stay awake because I was tired from cheering so much for another game. So while my newest heart throbs of Donna Diggler and Booty Vicious were shaking their thangs on the rink… my eyes wouldn’t let me enjoy what their mama’s gave them. Next time, and yes there will be a next time, if it’s a double header I will make the game with the vicious & diggler duo. #YUM!!!
Oh yeah Sunday was OK too. =)
Out teaching the teacher
February 22nd, 2010When the student becomes the teacher, is it always good?
I’ve been enrolled in a class that is learning programming concepts.Visual Basic is the tool we are using on the Visual Studio enterprise system that we are provided via University of San Francisco. What is happening though is that the professor seems to be on and off. I cannot quite put my finger on it.
One day he seems to be on his game telling us exactly what he needs to such as what an array is and how bubble sorts are working but then when we have questions outside of class, he is absent unlike what he promised us. i find that myself and one, maybe two others have more experience in the field of programming so I am helping a good portion of the students, hopefully, learn. While I feel good about this, I also feel that they should be getting this instruction from the professor.
In the end, I all I can ask for is that my classmates will find that the instruction that I give them is a helpful free supplementary to the mishmash that they are paying for. while frustrating, it’s also gratifying at the same time. Perhaps there is a future in this for me after all.
Quick write up before work
February 22nd, 2010How was your weekend? Mine was a mixed-bag.
It’s like one hand is reaching into a bag of soft puppies and the other is poking into a can of sharp needles.
When I did my own thing I was fine but when I relied on others I seemed to always be disappointed. Suck ass. On the plus side though, I got a ton of cleaning that needed to be done. i hope the roommates appreciate it. Not all of the cleaning was done in common areas but having a clean living environment has proven mental and physical health benefits. The oven and dishes were the main areas that were tackled in the common rooms. Believe me, they were not done without hesitation.
After realizing that I had been holding on to stuff just to hold on to it, I am in a minimization mode. For instance, the pool table is going away. I have people coming over Thursday or Saturday to look at it. The dresser in my room which I’ve had since I was seven is also being given away. My books, DVD’s and other miscellaneous stuff is being either given away or sold. Why? I have no need for it. I would rather have things that I use on a regular basis and a more concise well organized arranged room than one that looks like office depot and goodwill aborted their love child in my room.
Other weekend activities included connecting with a friend that i lost much to my own actions. it took me a while to understand what I did but I think through persistance, learning and well even USF helped me with this… I realized something new about myself and the relationship that I lost (or almost lost). Hopefully it can reform.
I made curry for the first time. It was way too watery. I had never made curry before since I had always tried to be respectful of my roommates. I still try to but I was super hungry! I don’t think I stunk up the house too much but I did make an attempt at curry. If my roommates were upset, they didn’t say anything to me. If they were upset and just couldn’t verbalize it… SORRY!!!
Last notable thing was really the kicker and really irritating. A ‘friend’ I’ve known for a long time really hurt me this week. We made plans to have a meal together and he bailed. he didn’t say why he never showed up but when he called an hour late I was not really ready to talk to him. I heard that he was safe and not hurt but I also knew that he didn’t respect me. His actions show me that not only does he not respect me but he doesn’t care about me. If he did care, he would have made an effort to reach out the night before letting me know that his arrival was in question so I could make other plans. I don’t know where my friendship stands with this guy anymore as this is not the first time I’ve felt this way with him and I don’t see him changing.
No Rain – http://bit.ly/bKtN23
Irreplaceable – http://bit.ly/aYTzsg
Pancake Day
February 20th, 2010Trouble Makers
February 19th, 2010Personally I prefer Jack Daniels.
Briggs likes foo foo drinks like Vodka-cran or something with an umbrella.
Kim-bo however, She kept it light because she loves dem “HOES“.
Hell yeah
February 17th, 2010Where am I?
January 18th, 2010I wish I knew.
I’ve deactivated my FB account because it hurts. it hurts because I don’t know who I am, where I am and what I am doing. I see others that are so strong, fulfilled and complete yet I am empty and alone.
Poetry:
I write, message & express what I feel silently to the ether.
Communications of my fears are being realized.
The shadows of my mind creep and swell
I’ve considered them cowards and selfish
Fearfully now think may they have found an answer
A solution that I’ve neglected to admit
Am I courageous or selfish enough
Can I defeat these angels
Will the demons keep me lost
How long can I suffer
Weekend ride
December 9th, 2009This weekend I’m hoping to go for a nice ride. The ride will be a few hours and about 14 to 16 miles depending on the source and starting point. I think I have a riding buddy to come along but if not it’ll be a nice solo jaunt. I’ll be bringing my camera and if I stop I’ll bring some snaps home to share. This should be a blast. You, my readers, are welcome to come along if you want to or join me/us for a drink after the ride. Any takers?
Below is the route I plan to travel.
Thanks to lil bear for the book that helped me find this loop.



